And so.

As the grand entriesdo roll out their final wishes, what does the porter feel.

Good afternoon to those at BST and Good morning to those of the American Standard Time.

I have been neglecting this far more than I should really as I found many people here who are good and willing people in life and in love.

Realising that recently, I've been plodding along, slightly unhappy, depressive and somewhat listless, I decided to try and reason things out. I know that this may not come as any great suprise to most people considering you write in a blog to rant about all things which are good and mostly bad. But in general, I just dump in my LJ and I shouldn't. No-one really wants to hear how depressive I am, how I am being so self-obsessed and ignorant of other people and how self pitying I am.

I have thus decided that I shall try to stop always coming back to LJ and dump all my unwanted crap onto anyone else who happens to come across my vastly decreased blog.

So on the up note, I have found a job, my shortest term of unemployment being only 27 days. Its not really the most excessively interesting or tasking job but it is work at the moment. It keeps me going from day to day and from week to week.

Also, an interesting point I found out was how money just disappears when you dont watch it, or even when you do watch it. I wasn't paid for 2 months and just over 1000 pounds went to £1.53 before payday arrived. Thatis a scary experience realising that you maybe into minus figures. But it is all over now and is slowly increasing.

One thing I need to curb besides my spending, is the ability to get up and be proactive in needs to my attention. Such as going to the gym, cleaning my room and actually looking into courses to increase my chances of future work.

But, always one step at a time.

A little shout-out to mention some people who I miss more now than I thought I would.
To Evie and Mac and Denise, I miss your smiles and good nature. I do wish to come back to New Milford someday if you'll have me.
To Tinah, you do need to smile more again and I offer hugs as does all your friends.
To all the Sraffies, I have great thanks to you for all that you have given me, I may return properly one day.

And so, I must depart.
Please return for part 398.

To All,

I have no job.

Nothing new there then.

Regards,

Daniel.

Today has been unusually tiring and annoying.

Let me just give anyone who doesn't know a little run down for a moment.

For some reason, on Christmas Eve, on my way to buy presents, my motorcycle decided to shut off in mid-55m.p.h-drive. On a dual carrageway. Aren't I lucky then that it happened to be just about 3.20 and people weren't making their way into town to make last minute adjustments.

So to cut a long story short, I ended up waiting for 2 hours for a breakdown lorry, in rather bitter weather so that I could get home to see Eragon just finishing.

I only got my bike back a week ago after I was told that they had to replace a piston and the barrel to which the piston was housed as well as the caps to keep it all in place. About £500 in all, so not a cheap job.
This week, for some reason, it keeps cutting out and stalling. Just after a full service was done on it and parts of the engine were replaced.

Maybe its just me, maybe I just drive to recklessly, maybe I just have bad luck involving vehicles, but for some reason, I have had to spend over £2000 on fixing my bikes. The three I have had in the 5 years I've been riding. Somehow, I just don't think I can have that much bad luck.

To All,

This is the last chance anyone can ask for Christmas/New Years Cards, as I have to get them done my tomorrow.

Enjoy :)

Yes, the supposedly white part of the year is thoroughly upon us.

And brings with it the chance to wonder where the year went.
But thats for another longer and more rant filled post.

The question I ask is this, who wants a present?

[Edit] Or, if someone would like a personalised Christmas Card, please ask :)

GO to urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you.

1.) Your name: Daniel
This is a difficult name to define because it defies many boundaries of human perception, let alone various languages. One of the closest translations that experts give is God or many other variations of that general idea.
Other definitions are thought to be:
Tao
Chi
The Great Spirit
Chuck Norris
Energy
Infinity
Sublime
ect
Despite the fact that various names have been pinned to Daniel, its seems that all of the above examples (including that of God)cannot even withstand the magnitude of Daniel.
The reason this name continues to elude even the brightest of human minds is that the idea of Daniel cannot possibly exist in a dimensional state. Daniel is so powerful, it defies all laws of this or any other universe. Recent studies have shown that people who have attempted to comprehend this name have either disappeared, died spontaneously, or driven themselves into a pertinent state of insanity and/or catatonia. One common belief is that Daniel is possibly the grounds on which everything and nothing is based. It seems to surpass the idea of infinity. Quantum physicists report that this Daniel is Everything and Nothing. It or He is said to have unexplainable connections with the String and Superstring Theories as Daniel resonates within every single layer of the multi-dimensional complex and yet still exists beyond that point which is where scientists have lost the trail. Various theologists and spiritual leaders believe that Daniel is one who is, as they say, "The Answer". All attempts to understand this idea of Daniel have failed.

Daniel. Nothing else can describe him.

2.) Your age: 22

1) A .22 Caliber hand gun. .22 is a measurement of inches, not millimeters you fucking retards.
2)22 inch rims

'22 inch rims on the Lac. I guess that was yo footprint in the sand carrying us on yo back' -David Banner

3.) One of your friends: Andrew

The boy's name Andrew \a-nd-rew, an-drew\ It is of Greek origin, and its meaning is "man, warrior".

Hey Andrew hows it going

4.) What should you be doing?: Sleeping.

To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in.

GET OUT GRANDMA! I was sleeping.
Those were sleeping noises grandma.

5.) Your favourite colour: Scarlet

Used in Ireland to suggest embarrasment in a given situation. Embarrasment that would provoke blushing.

My top fell off at the disco last night. Aw, scarlet!

Also used with "scarlet for yer ma for having ya." When suggesting that your mother must be ashamed of you.

6.) Your birthplace: Exeter

A small, picturesque university city in southern England. Renowned for its rah population to rival Durham, Oxford and Cambridge.
A lovely day out for all the family.

Tarquin: "Oh, bother. I didn't quite make it into my first choice university. Nevermind, I'll be jolly happy in Exeter!"

7.) Last person you talked to: Ruby

that ridiculous hot girl

yo that ruby girl is mad hot

8.) Last thing you had to drink: Orange Juice

1. any juice, generally of the color orange.

2. juice gathered from oranges, with or without pulp

1. that juice over there is orange, but does not contain oranges.

2. may i have a glass of orange juice?

9.) Your nickname: Rio

a river or riviera spanish for a river

Those Mexicans crossed the Rio Grande (the border).

Doing three peoples work is very hard work.

And speaking to the American lady on the phone reminded me of the last time I spoke to Evie.

Somewhere along the lines, I believe I have become blurred, like a distant window pane in the rain.

Everything I have wished for has been washed slightly downwards, or diluted like it seems to have less importance than it once did before.

For some reason, I can't find that certain peace anymore. I still don't get angry at anything, I hardly ever get stressed, and even if i do have sudden outbursts of such energy it's always amusing for me and others watching me. The certain peace I mean is when I can just relax into something and not worry at all at the consequences. I seem to have lost that ability for the moment, I'm worrying about things more. That's probably for the better as I know that I have to look further into the future than I have for a very long time.

I'm not talking about what I want from life in things like marriage, kids or a mortgage, but more of what I want to be doing by the end of the year, will I have enough money to go on my families first ever group holiday, will I ever be able to move out into my own accommodation.

I know that some of these questions racing aroung in my head are mildly unreasonable or even are too far to actually see, but I am 22, I do need to see the bigger picture now as I haven't for a very long time and thats a little worrying.

Deadlines keep getting missed from my own standards and that is unacceptable because they are easily met in some places and basically less than an hours work in others, but I still put them off. How it seems I'm getting lazier and lazier every day, is beyond me. Maybe I'm just content to drift subconsciously but I know that I can't forever. I'm at the age in my life when parents in the animal world would shun their young to fend for themselves, and if they failed that would be their own fault, not the parents.

I have all the basics: A job which pays reasonably well, someone to keep me company through the night (if ever I could stay with her), friends who don't mind a bit of exercise and possible career progression.
So why do I feel like I've washed out?

Please ignore for ridiculous phrasing.

Post the names of 20 of your favorite musicians.
See who can guess which is your favorite song by each.
Once someone guesses right, bold that row and include the song.

In no particular order...

1. Tool
2. Muse
3. The White Stripes
4. tweaker
5. Nine Inch Nails
6. Cave In
7. Martin Grech
8. 30 Seconds to Mars
9. System of a Down
10. Reuben
11. Rammstein
12. Powerman 5000
13. Oceansize
14. The Offspring
15. The Mars Volta
16. Killswitch Engage
17. Isis
18. Electric Light Orchestra
19. Daft Punk
20. Breaking Benjamin

"The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed."

1) Look at the list and Bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them :-)


1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter Septology - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Someone tell me, what do you think I read?